6 days

By the time you guys read this, it will probably be in like 5 days, or maybe even on Christmas. Well, I wanted to say that Christmas is in 6 days, and I am more excited then I have ever been in my life...or this month maybe. Yes, that's better, because, thank god, I have been really happy. I have all A's, on the honor roll, I have all the things that I have been asking for on my birthday (skullcandy headphones, Gshock, laptop, and so on) and I know a lot of you will think, "oh, she is just spoiled", but I really am not. When you look at things a certain way, I have all these things, but you see, I am very excited because I am not used to getting everything I wanted, ever since the economy here in America went down. A lot of things are either from my dad, a friend that is just giving me something, or a present from my mom/grandmother. I am so greatful. I have been giving tithes to the church every sunday. I am not asking for anything further.

Music Luver

I have been listening to some awesome music. Nero is so awesome. I would love to meet the group one day. Their music is soooo cool. Its perfect for me, because I love techno so much, and they have a lot of songs for me to discover.
Check me out on Grooveshark-
http://grooveshark.com/#/electamusic/music

I just got a laptop! my own laptop! finally! YAY! I'm gonna get a cook Kuromi skin for it. I also got a Baby G-shock. And some skullcandy headphones. Whoop. My room looks awesome too. My birthday was awesome.

LIFE

I'm in 8th Grade.
I am choosing my Highschools at the moment.
I didn't come to school today...sick.
I hate my ex.
I feel so happy.
I'm changing my life.
MY BIRTHDAY IS ON FRIDAY!!

The Key

To get what you want
You gotta get what you need
You need the key
If u wanna be free

Free

You need the key
If u wanna be free
The key to the kingdom
The power
The glory

To the heavenly god!
To get what you want
You gotta get what you need
You need the key
If u wanna be free

You (song-for my album phsycotic dillema)

I don't mean to lie
to you
I don't mean to stare
At you
You are the best thing
That happened to me
That happened to me

You
You
Have
Have
Me
Me
At awe
At Awe

And you
You
Creator
Creator
Of
Of
Me
And you

Only one person made me and one person helped me and one person came to me
To do it all again

You
You
Youooh
Oh oh ooh
Take me back to
The old days
We had so much fun
Why can't you
Why can't youoh

Do
Do di da
Do di da
Do da da dada

Father
I love you
And father
I love too

Mother
I love you
Mother
I want you to
Enjoy
The sound
Of
This
Life
Ou have
And I will do the same

High School Process...UGH!

OMG IM GOING TO HS NEXT YEAR! I am taking the specialized test. I'm applying for stuyvuesnt and I hope I get in! And I'm applying to all the tech schools! Ahh so excited for October 28-29 to take the test!

New ipod

I got a brand new iPod touch 4th generation, since my 8G one broke. Now I have a 32G, Which really need!

ID Tech

Im at ID Tech camp right now!! WOOT WOOT COLOMBIA UNIVERSITY. Oh, sorry. Forgot to say hello. Hello!

Answers

Yes, I went to playland.
Yes, I had fun.
No, I haven't went to any other parks.
No, I didnt not go swimming.
Yes, I went to the pool AND the lake.
Yes, I will be going to six flags, splish splash, and seaseme street.
No, I wont be going in September.
Yes, this month.
Yes, I am SO EXCITED for school to start. (8TH GRADE!)
Sorry I haven't posted. Well, that answers your questions.

Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't been posting...but I have been caught up with my real life.
Summer Vaycay has started and it actually feels really good to stay away from Raimi. I read a book called and and unforgivness, and It said to choose my friends carefully. I just need time away from him, but I do see my self rather demanding sometimes with him. I need to change myself before I change anyone else. I am actually learning about myself with me and raimi. I am not a fan of how I react to certain things, but sometimes I can get a bit moody. Sorry raimi if I caused you too much trouble. Ugh! I hate talking this way. I am such a shy person! Ugh! I wish I can talk to someone and know what to say. Two days ago I snapped my neck really bad, just by waking up and turning, so that whole day I couldn't get up. Then, I had to use the bathroom, so you can't imagine how hard it was. AND PAINFUL! then I had to use a towel wrapped around my neck to hold it. It was so painful. I almost fainted because I got really dizzy and then I blacked out. I managed to stay awake, though. Right now my neck still hurts, and it's really sore. I can't look up or to the right very much. Ugh!
The pool has been fun. I can't wait to go to playland, sixflags, coneyisland, and so on! Yay! This summer will be very fun.
There is the new post you have been waiting for. Bye!

100TH POST!!!

THIS IS MY 100TH POST! WOOHOO!
Going to boston tommorow, and staying in a hotel! SO FREAKIN EXCITED!

pweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssssse

Okay

He said he like likes me. Makes me feel better. I really want to get back together, but my mom wont let me right now.

AHH

AHH LIFE IS SO HARD!!
I have been getting dehydrated a lot, and i get dizzy and get a headache a lot because i need to drink more water, since its summer. Now i get hives when i am near cats. Omg.

Hello i am tabitha what is ur name?

I like him, not you.

message

Joey you are annoying me a little >:(

Definition of LOVE.

Love is when you cant stay away from that person. You are addicted, and cant stop thinking about that person. You dont even realize it. You will hate the person for something they did, but you still forgive them. You write about them. That is love.

Emails are a picture of letters. Nothing like true words.

Hello? Am I the only one talking?

I respect if you dont feel the same way, but its okay. I just feel that way.

I am too shy to tell you in person. Please talk to me!

Dont you get it? I have the biggest crush on you still. Why can't you understand I want your side? How do you feel? Answer me in school tommorow. I am afraid it's no longer "like" anymore. If I still crush on u after what u did to me, it's love.

SECRET (Poem)

The secret lies down below
The regret dies down in the snow
Nothing can ever come near
Our little mental quiet mere

Go ahead and try to take
But you will only try to break
Anything you say to me
Can never be you love me

What is your secret high above
That takes your cry to a dove
Why does love take your side
And I just go run and hide?

Our secret, I promise
Devour love, I promise :)

EVERYONE COMMENT

DONT CARE WHAT U SAY JUST COMMENT

o my goood

I just took both math tests. THE TESTS ARE OVER FINALLY NO MORE TESTS FOR ANOTHER YEAR IN 8TH GRADE WOOP WOOP OH YEAH SO HAPPAEYAYAYA! READERS OF MY BLOG: PLEASE COMMENT. YES. I AM TALKING TO YOU. U MAY THINK "OH IM JUST ONE PERSON OTHERS WILL COMMENT" BUT EVERYONE ELSE THINKS THAT JUST COMMENT. I DONT CARE WHAT YOU SAY. COMMENT. PLEASE. <3 TABBY

Math Test!

I am about to take the math test in a couple of minuetes, and i am so nervous! I can barley type right! I just tried to send a comment to Lola from lolastar, so hopefully she is reading this! :D :D

Lola Star and Coney Island!

Omg! So happy from today! So much to talk about, so little space!
Well first, you know that store, Lola star that was on TV and has super funky stuff? I found the store! It's super cool! It has everything that's my style! I wanted everything in the store! So the store was all the way in Brooklyn, Coney Island on the boardwalk. My mom spotted it from all the pink and funky stuff! So to make this all short, I feel famous because now I'm on her site as a happy customer! AHHHHH! it's sooo cool!!!!!
Lolastar.com
Click happy customers!!
YAY
so then I went on a very scary ride. I have a pic on my FB - Tabitha Colon.
Then, I got food from nathans and some ice cream from dunkin donuts! I ate on the train back! I ate the yummy corn dog, fried chicken, and cheese fries! And a snickers-cookie dough- peanut butter sunday! YUM!  :d :p so check out the site and don't hesitate to go to coney island and pass by! I HAD SO MUCH FUN!

ahhhh

I hope i did good on the ELA test! Now its the MATH test I really need to be nervous about. I am horrible at most math! :( lots of studying is coming this way. Ahhhh

Memory Poem from ELA Class

I remember the day
When I loved to play
With cheap dolls from deli bids
Annoying calls from smelly kids

I remember the day
When I had to pray
For kids on their own way
Who start to fade in the gray

I remember the day
When I had no choice but to say okay
I had to stay
There was no “YAY!”

I remember the day
When I played with clay
I used to spray paint
Until they decay

I remember the day
The wore a lei
And pranced around and played
Until the time decayed

I remember the day
When I was young
I used to be grunge

I remember the day
I didn’t know who I was
Today I still don’t
So I say hey
To the new meh

BTW AGAIN

I made all the dolls you see here!

YAY GOOD THINGS COME SOONER OR LATER YAYA

Cant wait for May 16! no more actual skool, just math and ELA and then some program where we choose like cooking or fashion. YAY! And no more mandatory CITIZEN SCHOOLS. YAY.

OMG UGH AHHHHHHHHHHH OMG OMG OMG AHHHHHH GRAAAHAHAHAHAHAIFB EWIQBWILREUGQIERUGQHELRKJBGKQEJRBGN

OMG I did not sleep at ALL last night. I was so sick! this morning I was so tired, when I was putting on my makeup i realized my hand was shaking so much! I almost fell asleep while eating. OMG i hate this i have allergies now in school. Yes, I went to school. I AM SO TIRED. I FEEL LIKE FALLING A SLEEP IN CLASS BUT I AM SICK TOO. If Raven gets sick its my moms fault....or Wahkeen in SS and Math...and anyone else i am nearby today, but it might just be allergies. My throut feels so itchy i cant breath! omg i hate hate hate it. JUST GIVE ME A ZERTEC AND BENADRYL AND LET ME SLEEP FOR GODS SAKE!

White Rabbit- FAV SONG

HERE ARE LYRICS TO MY FAV SONG-

One pill makes you larger
and one pill makes you small
and the ones that mother gives you
dont do anythin at all

Go ask alice
when shes ten feet tall

and if you go chasing rabbits
you know ur gonna fall
telemahuka
smoking cattipillar
has given u the call
to call Alice
When she was just small

------

oops

I know I said I wont write anymore songs, but you can think of this as a poem, with a tune. I keep singing it just randmoly and thought I should share it:

What is it you want from me?
Sparkling jewels of vacancy
What is it you need from me?
Everything but foregy.

Chorus:
Give it all up
Its over now
You cant save her
your too late
poor her
shes dead now
poor her
shes dead now
dead girl walking now
Give it all up before it gets foul
now

..............................AHHHHH

Sooooo tired. :( I am sick of citizen schools. Making us more tired. Grrrr. Other people complain during class...its annoying...i dont complain during class out loud...people have to suck it up and dont talk. In general. Pretty much all the bad kids have complained out loud. I have maybe once or twice, but I just dont do that in school. Its kind of rude. Maybe it slipped out of my mouth a couple times...nobody's perfect...but i dont like doing that. Ugh...when will school end? never for me. I am going to colledge as long as i can to get the highest degree. MIT! I know I shouldnt say this, because im over him...but i wonder if the reason Raimi doesnt want to go to MIT is because I'm going, because he said he wanted to go but then told Ms. Hamilton he wanted to go somewhere else. If thats true....IMATURE. If thats not true and its just because he doesnt want to anymore...okay. But its weird. He lied to me so he can lie to himself. He is just...a strange little kid...some good way. Also, its hard to go our seperate ways when our ways are almost the same. So im sorry but I can't. If you read this...then...yea...thats from me to u.

BTW

BTW, the blank spaces means I put an icon, so on a computer you cant see it, but you can see it on a ipod or something.

Addicted! 

I am so addicted to NightClub story for the iPod! It takes hours-minuetes-days for drinks to create. I have so many drinks, but my secret is to change the time on my iPod. I have brought club cash. I spent 10$. Idc if the dollar sign is wrong it's not that I'm dumb I'm just lazy.  so download nightclub story for the iPod touch and  the  away!

Math

+ = 



I have a new favorite song! It's from my favorite movie, Sucker Punch. It's called white rabbit. It's so cool! It's by emilina torrini. I'm drinking a nice cold Malta, a kind if Spanish soda that I love. I hate that skool has to start tomorrow. I didn't finish all my HW.  I can't do my math because I don't have my math book cause I was absent and when I was going to pick up my homework my teacher left already. I'm so sick-sickidiez. 



Mmmmm...eating velveeta Mac and cheese!!! 

Update

Happiness is just the best thig in the world, don't ya think? Happiness has taken over me all week, I havent been thinking about anything else, including u know who. I have been past everything and I have matured. I still can't stand that kid, but with his actions, I have to as long as we are in the same classes as eachother. I love this blog. I have stopped writing songs for now. I am trying to make a video, which will be my big project this summer. It's a music video. Well anyways, thx for everyone who reads this. Peace.

NEW ALBUM : PSYCHOTIC DILEMMA

PSYCHOTIC DILEMMA (FIRST SONG)

na-na-na-na nahaha

na-na-na-na nahaha

na-na-na-na nahaha

What
yea oh
what is it you said

what
yea
WOAH
what is it you heard

what
yea yea yea
what was that

welcome to a new age
welcome to a kinda crazy page
of my book
go ahead
take a look

i-i-i-i-i-ts
the new qage
the new page
thew new faze of earth
the new book
the new look
the new hook of life

i-i-i-i-i-ts
the psychotic dilemma
eh eh
i-i-i-i-i-ts
the psychotic dilemma
eh eh
there is no way you gonna me from getting people jion in
just just just join in
are you goin in
eh eh
looks like you have n-n-o ch-choice t-t-o take tonigh-t-t-

oooh
new age new page new look new book new hook on our life

ma-ma-ma ma-ma-ma ma-ma-ma-mad life
*ma-ma-ma ma-ma-ma ma-ma-ma-mad* take a look to this yime now for it will bethe last time now
before the new dilemma
starting now

look at you you are so dumb you dont know anything
look at you you need a psychiatric
o o o o
you get violated everyone else now

not your fault its the dilemma
they are all psychos.

Psychotic dilemma
Idiotic dilemma
Psychotic dilemma
Idiotic dilemma
exotic world we have dont we dont deny it world we have you and me

sssss Psychotic dilemma!

Small Poem

Killer Poem
your little head
you need to be fed
more anger
to be led
to wake up
Before time is up
cant save her
your too late
now finish your plate
of angry hate

KILLER (SONG)

Let us see
eehehehehe
whatcha can do to me
eheheheheh
let me see
ehehehehehe
watcha can
do oo o o o
to me e e e e e

eh eh eh eh eh
wtahcha can
do o o o o
eh eh eh eh eh
wtahcha can
do o o o o


Let us see
what you are capable of
let us see
eh
what you can do to me
not much hehe
not much hehe
let us see
let me see
take me to your place and lets watch a movie
and we can go out to dinner
and you can walk home

you can do to me
what you do to all others
you can break my heart
like you have done to others
but
this is the first time you
actually get this close
to me
so you
are so happy in my eyes
but you have fire burning in you little head
your little head
you need to be fed
more anger
to be led
to wake up
Before time is up
cant save her
your too late
now finish your plate
of angry hate

eh eh eh ehehehe
let me see
you
wihtout all of your happiness
great day
you always say
hey
okay you are not trying hard enopugh now you want me to know
that you are the killer
killer
killer
love
has
possessed your mind
your head needs more anger
and you get angry
thats makes you angry
then you get full
and overflow
and you
leak out with your anger
you cant save her
save her
poor her
she is a dead girl now
holding your hand
she doesn't
know whats in your little head
but
you do
and me
and you
and little
brain of your not yours any more

eh eh eh ehehehe
let me see
you
wihtout all of your happiness
great day
you always say
hey
okay you are not trying hard enopugh now you want me to know
that you are the killer
killer
killer
oh
killer killer killer
cops
killer
killer
killer

Jokes I heard 2day!

Funny Christian Jokes
Micheal Jr.

-

There are saved people, and there are oversaved people.
Saved: You thirsty?
Oversaved: Thirsty for the lord!

Saved: you have my keys?
Oversaved: Keys to the kingdom!
Saved: Well I got no kingdom I got an SUV but it aint no kingdom...

LOL!

Being Baptized


Learned how to swim

*fishing on the bridge*
Dad: you aint cathing no fish?
Micheal Jr: Nah noth-
*AHHHHHHHH....AHHHHH....AHHHH, *SPLASH*

Thats how he learned to swim.

Baptized

*guy pushes him in the water*
MJ refuses and says "i aint ready yet"
*Repeats*

*Thinks that how people say "In the name of the father, the son and the holy spirit...*SPLASH*
But jesus got baptized. What did they say to him? "You, your daddy and your best friend...*SPLASH*

LOL

Even more...look him up on youtube!

Quote of the Day (Song)

woah
wo oh
oh oh oh
woah
wo oh
oh oh oh
woah
wo oh
oh oh
oh
cats
got your tounge
the checks in
the mail
thats what
is your quote
today

God is
always by your side
oversaved
people are annoying
so stay
far away from them today

woah
wo oh
oh oh oh
woah
wo oh
woah
wo oh
oh oh oh

So now you got y9our quote of the day

woah
wo oh
oh oh oh
Now lets
show you your horescope
stay from
all red things
or
something red will on you
super fake
super hero
you will be a super hero
that oviously not true

woah
wo oh
oh oh oh
woah
wo oh
oh oh oh
oh oh oh
woah
wo oh
oh oh oh

Hi

Hi
I still like you

Exmortis

Play this scary but not to scary fun game!

http://www.pointnclickgames.com/scary-games/exmortis/

I won this three times. After this game play exmortis 2 and 3!

Living, Laughing, and loving!

I live -

I live through all the ups and downs, and to many people I am a trooper. I broke my wrist, had many bullies and was heartbroken.

I laugh-

I have a lot of good times like most people. I laugh a lot, which is good. People say I have a good heart.

I love-

I have a good heart and I love everyone. Only once have I seen real love. Raimi, you were my first love and I still dont know why we are like this. I hope we can fix it.

Everyone goes through this, right?

Like my new blog design? Made it myself!

Makeover - Custom

Everyone lives, laughs and loves, right?

TO A NEW WORLD

Feeling emotional
Nothing is possible
When is this going to stop

Happiness
Possible
If I can get to a window

If I had the strength to survive

I’d go to another land

I’d be the best person to be with

I’d go to the greatest
Places in the world


Lalalalalala
LA LA
LA LA
LA LA LA

LALALALALA
LA LA
LA LA
LA LA LA

I’D GO TO THE BEST PLACES IN THE WORLD
WHERE I CAN GET TO THE WATERS

I CANT RELAX AND HAVE SO MUCH FUN.

HA HA HA HA HA HA HA

LA LA LA LA

Again (Poem)

School starts Heartbreaks
Heartbreaks start songs for me
Songs make me start to write poems
Poems make me feel different feelings
Some feeling make me angry
Anger starts heartbreaks
Heartbreaks are in school
School makes me angry
Anger makes me write
Writing makes me happy again
Happiness causes love
Love causes poems
Poems causes different feelings
Feelings cause anger
And anger causes heartbreak
And heartbreaks are in school
again

I am I Poem

I am
Like hail, loud and noisy when falling and crunches when stepped on. >:(
Like a Tabby Cat, orange and fiery and me, Tabby.
Like sour candy, Colorful on the outside, crazy on the inside.
Like a museum, so many floors to explore.
Like a computer, so many things in the mind going on at once.
Like the rainbow, every color
I am
Like a piano, musical and fun, but also can be sad.
Like a wood pecker, pecks at everything it sees.
Like the spring, colorful flowers blooming.
Like a buggy, small and short, but very colorful.
Like Alice in wonderland, looking for her way home.
Like midnight, crazy and exciting.
I am me
I am myself
I am I.

I dont care

I dont really care
I dont really care
I dont really
care
care
care

I dont really care
I dont really care
I dont really
care
care
care

everybody's looking at me
like im
famous
famous

Everybodys watching me
like im
important
important
to them

let me tell you somthing that will change your mind
let me tell you somthing that will make you blind

oh oh

I dont really care
I dont really care
I dont really
care
care
care

I dont really care
I dont really care
I dont really
care
care
care

now do you believe me when i say
okay
baby
you need to calm down

and ive been waiting all night
and ive been waiting all day
to say


I dont really care
I dont really care
I dont really
care
care
care
about you
about this
life
that you think i have

why dont i just tell you the truth
oooth
oooooo
ooooo
ooooooo oooooo

whispers -
*
I dont really care
I dont really care
I dont really
care
care
care
*
I dont really care
I dont really care
I dont really
care
care
care

I dont really care
I dont really care
I dont really
care
care
care

everybodys looking at me
like im
famous
famous
well guess what
im not
im not
im just me

let me tell you the truth
about me

I dont really care
I dont really care
I dont really
care
care
care

let me just
act and dress how i want to
i dont go to be eyed
all of the time
i aint no miley cyrus
i aint no lady gaga
i aint no nicki minaj
i aint nobody
but myself

so let me tell you something that will change you mind

I dont really care
I dont really care
I dont really
care
care
care

Super Sonic Technologic

LALALALALALALALALALALALA
LALALALALALALALA
LALALALALALALALA

O O O O
O O O O

Super sonic technologic
brain of yours
I want it want it

Super sonic technologic
brain of yours
I want it want it

give it all to me
Give it up
im open
im open

Your the kind of brain
I want it
I want it
Your the kind of person

I
just want
to love
life

I just want
to be
like
you


Super sonic technlogic
brain of your
I want it want it

Super sonic technologic
Persanilty
I want it want it

Technolic terminality

Super sonic technlogic
brain of your
I want it want it

Your
nanotechnology
cant be real
YOur technologic brain
is a dodgy
a dodgy
dodgy
d-d-d-d-d-d-ogy

Radio Frequency Identification


I want you to run through my
blometric identification
system

I want to know that

your not
a dodgy
dodgy
d-d-d-d-d-d-ogy

*Intializing Blometric Identification*

*Attenuation! Attenuation! OVERLOAD*

*BEEP- Dodgy*

OOOOOOHH

Your
super sonic technologic
brain of yours
I want it want it

DAnCE!

I can't get up
I can't move
Take me with you
Take me with you

I am stuck here
Like a dead bird
I wont even if I
See a herd
Running
So fast

I can't get up
I can't move
My body
What is wrong
I am so
Tired
I can't move

Take me with you
To the world
Where I can dance
To die


I wanna get up out of this bed
I wanna move like I never did before
Take me with you
Please
Take me with you

Now I can't sleep
Because I know
I can't get up
Or move
I'm being pulled out
I'm grabbing on
But there's nothing there
To save me this time

I being taken
Away

I am dragging on the floor
I wake up
I get up
I dance
*whole tune changes to electronic dance*
D-d-d ance
I-I-I-I
Wanna
D-d-d acne
Wanna
D-d-d acne
Let's go
N-n-n-n-n
OW

C-c c'mon
Dance dance
Dance dance
L-let's let's let's
Dance dance
Ooo oh
Ooo ooo oh
Dance
Dance
Just
Don't
Die
Die
Help
Yourself
Help your
Self
To
DANCE!

Lover of the sky

I walk into to the sunlight
Like it's my home

I look
Straight into the moon light
Like I'm seeing
An ecplipse
I stare
Into the sun
Until
I can't anymore
I adore
What he made
For us

I am a lover of the sky
A fan of the sun
Thinking about the moon

I am the one
That's shines
Under the sun
Because
I love it so much
Why wouldnt I


Why wouldnt
Why wouldn't I?
Why wouldnt I love the sky?
Gods creation?

I love it
I love him
I love them
I love everyone
No matter
If they
Did right or wrong

I am a lover of the sky
A fan of the sun
Thinking about the moon

I am the one
That's shines
Under the sun
Because
I love it so much
Why wouldnt I

Whats up - map of the sky

What's up
What's that
I know

What's up
Nothing much
Oh
But there is so much

The signs
Birds
Buildings
Planes

The clouds
Lighting
Stars
The moon and sun

The planets
And so much more
Including heaven
And the lord.

Why do you say
Wazzup
Nothing much
You?
Nothing
How about you

Well me, the most important thing
God and what he made for us.
That's what's up with me
That what's up
Everybody
That's whats up
With me
That's what's
Everybody

Thank the lord
For everything
Everything
He gave us
Thank him
Because
He did for us
Us
Us
Us
No one
Else
Needs it more
Than you a me
And everybody

That's what's up with me
That what's up
Everybody
That's whats up
With me
That's what's
Everybody

new song and new album : map of the sky ; song: go

I know
Where your goin
Your not going anywhere
With this

I knew
Where your goin
You ran away
With this

Go go go
Away
Right now
To a land
Of impecible
Happiness

Go go go
And pack
Your stuff
Your leaving to a new world

You
Forgot
Your things
Don't worry
You
Have got
New things
To look forward to there

You didn't realize
You were leaving
It came
Out of the blue
You didn't want
To leave
But you had to

Go go go
Away
Right now
To a world
Of impeccable
happiness

Go go go
Don't leave
Without your soul
Don't forget it

You lost
You soul
Your looking
For it
You have
To find it
Before
It's Stolen
Find it
Keep it
Bring it
To your world
When you find it
Keep it
Bring it
Don't forget it


This time around
You won't be needing this
Soul that you think has value
Now
But it's dead
It will always be
To others
Just brig it
For good luck

Go go go
Away
Right now
To a world
Of impeccable
happiness
When you are
So happy
Don't forget to thank

The lord.

SHINY TOY GUNS

SHINY TOY GUNS ROCK! IVE KNOWN THEM FOR A LONG TIME BUT I HAVE BEEN FALLING IN LOVE WITH THEM ALL OVER AGAIN...I DONT KNOW WHY!
I THINK IM GOING THROUGH A PHASE!

I dont listen to music because other people listen too it, like most people, I listen to music I like. I am me, not everyone else.

What is This?

Conversations help. A lot.

I never thought a small conversation can do what it did.

I dont know what to feel right now.

I dont feel anything at this point.

Is that normal?

Help us

I don't have the guts
To say it to your face

If I say it now
My people
Won't accept

If I say it here
Everyone will know

Everyone
Will
Know


I
Miss
you

I know
It's not
Your fault

I
Need
Help

Help me
Bring us back

I
Will
Not

Disobey my people

Bye
Bye
Now

For a while....

Help us
Now

Before it's too late


Time Is running out
Help me
Help
Us

HI

Like my new design?

I am auditioning for the hall pass tour tommorow. I will sing late december.

What happened? (SONG)

I like you
I liked being with you
You were so much fun
So much

I still do
Even though I said I hated you
I still do
I don’t know

I like your personality
We have a lot in common

I want this all to reverse
Let is reverse
Start over
When it was late December
We were happy

But in the middle of Janurary
We were wrong
We had gone wrong
What happened
Now we are
Awkard friends
Don’t know
What we feel
What is it
Whats wrong
Im your friend
Let me free
From all these disabilities

(not done)

scream continued (whole song)

Scream
And run away
Just scream
Your hopes away
Scream
Until the glass breaks
Down

Screaming
While Sleeping

Screaming
While Dreaming

AHHHHHHHHHHHH

Scream
All your fears away
JUST
Scream
All your tears away
JUST
Scream
Until you fall
Down


Love isn’t real
Most of the time
Why can’t we scream it away?

Scream it out
You never loved me

Admit it, it was all a lie

AHHHHHHHHH

Scream
All your peers away
JUST
Scream
Like your running away

Don’t worry
It Is okay
I know its not your fault
Just scream it all
OUT

AHHHHHHHHHHH

Scream
For the ice cream trucks
JUST
Scream
Like a baby

You wont be criticized
While I’m around
JUST
scream

let me in

Let me in
Your dreams
Of love
And clouds

Let me in
Your heart
Of dreams
And lies

Why don’t you
Just give it up
You lost
Then you won
Yay for you
Yay for you

Let me in
Let me in
Out you go
Out you go
Let me in
Let me in
Your heart
Let me in
Let me in
Let me see what your
Feeling
Don’t hide it away

I am obsessive
People think
But I am just
Wanting
To care
And to help
Because I care
Because I feel
Too happy
To give up


Your stupid
Little lies
Of h-e-l-l
You
Wont listen
You wont hear me
You are just a
Little baby

Let me in
Let me in
Out you go
Out you go
Let me in
Let me in
Your heart
Let me in
Let me in
Let me see what your
Feeling
Don’t hide it away
No please
Not from me

love

L O V E TELL ME WHAT IS MEANS TO ME
L I F E WHY DO YOU KEEP HATING ME
W H Y WHY – WHY DO YOU KEEP WANTING ME
WANTING ME
HATING ME
NEVER WANTING ME AGAIN
YOUR SORRY?
OH SO WHAT
YOU LEFT ONE TO MANY TIMES
WHY DON’T YOU
JUST GIVE UP
JUST BECAUSE I SAY OKAY
DOESN’T MEAN
WERE CLEARED UP

DOESN’T MEAN WERE SAFE


LOVE IS
I DON’T EVEN KNOW
LIFE IS
I CANT EVEN EXPLAIN!

YOU ARE
THE STUPIDEST THING ON EARTH

I AM
I DON’T EVEN KNOW ANYMORE

YOU ARE
A LIAR
BUT SO HAPPY
SOMETIMES
LONLEY
SOMETIMES
ANGRY SOMETIMES
WHY?

WHY

Why
Why
Ooh
Ooh
Why
Why
Ooh
Ooh
Love

What is it

I don’t know

Its crazy

Love
What does it do

It’s a serial killer

It is happiness

It is a sadness

It is anything

You can think

It’s a feeling
A feeling
Broken
Taped shut
Never
To beat
Again

WHY do you have to be like that
Never to love
Never to care

You can be
So different

WHY do I deserve this
Always beat up
Always beat down

I have to always look up

Why do you got to do this
Why do you got to have this
Power

School
One thing is
School
Our thing is
School
Conflict is
School
Everything is
School
Drama center is
School
New people in
School
Why do
We got to go to
School

Why do
We got to do this
Why do
We got to have this
Silly little conflict
What’s gonna happen
now

Broken Feeling

We fall down
But we get back up

We all drown
But we all get saved

Those left behind

They will be okay

We go out
But we come back


Love
Mysterious wonder
Of dreams
Lies

Don’t say
Anymore
Don’t hurt yourself

I get it

You are out

Broken
Again
Feeling
Again
My feeling
Is broken
To pieces

Why?
Why have you done this….

Now you are
Comepletly different
You say sorry
I say okay

Now you know
What I am saying

You were a baby

You said
I was a joke

We all were

One team

Why would we
Leave
Forever

We all were
Together

Why have we
Gone apart

YOU
ARE
NOTHING
TO ME

YOU
ARE SOMETHING
TO MY HEART

Now you
Run away from all your fears
You hide away from all your tears that are trying to come down

Come down to
Earth!

Run around
Hide away
Dry your tears
Break away
From
These
Broken feelings

Scream it out
Let it out
Write it out
Hide in front of
A
Stupid
Laptop

Seriously?

Just come back
To earth

Late December

Bring me back
To the days
Of late December

When the wind
Blew in my face
The cold wind

I was blinded
By the cold air
The snow was so strong
I couldn’t see
I cant see
Help me
In late December

We were so happy
Never angry

Could you please
Bring me back?


I miss the laughing
I miss the awkwardness
I miss the friendly relationship

I miss the conflict
The silly arguments

Why have you left

Why cant we go back

To late December


I like to believe
All was great until

It all melted
The icy snow

I miss
It
All

Just bring me back
To late
December please

My world of INSANITY (NEW SONG)

My world of insanity, By Tabitha Colon

I need you now

Need you now

Oh

Oh

I need you now

Need you now

Oh

Oh

You were like

A little worm

In my brain

Never came out

Always in my mind

I want you back

Want you back

I really loved you

But not like that

I was on

A little cloud

Dreaming

I wasn’t on

The normal ground

Seeing

Reality

Come with me

Come with me

To a world of insanity

Come with me

Come with me

Oh

Oh

To a world of insanity

My world of insanity

I was blinded

By you

Your happiness

Couldn’t be true

Then you

Ripped the blindfolds off

And you

Were so

Angry

Happiness

In my world

Is the only rule

-only rule-

I thought

You were

Happy

Just look

At us

Now

Come with me

Come with me

To a world of insanity

Come with me

Come with me

Oh

Oh

To a world of insanity

My world of insanity

Copyright Ó – Tabitha Colon

Deception ( new song )

Life is running out of options
You better choose now
Before time runs out

I've heard many little stories
Fairy tales
That are true

That life is short
That life is fun
That life is everything
Were dreaming of

I've heard many little lies
That turn out to be
True!

They don't
Even
Realize
It

They don't
Even
Think about
It

Life is running out of options
You better choose now
Before time runs out

Lies are turning into darkness
You better
Tell
The
Truth
Now

I've seen many
many
many
many
Things
You gotta lie about
But
We turn
On ourselves
And call it
Bad

When are you gonna choose?
Right or wrong it's either one!
When are you gonna
Tell
The
Truth

Life is running out of options
You better choose now
Before time
Runs
Out


Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
Oh
Life is everything
Life
Life is every-
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
Oh
Life is everything
Life is every
Thing

Copyright Tabitha Colon

Today

Today...is....the best...day....EVER! I hope Raimi will be friends again with me. All the bad things i said wasn;t true, I was just mad about the email. He made me pop. But now he EMAILED ME! I am so happy. Thats how much i really care about him!! I get happy when he talks to me!

Teachers

I know everyone hates ms. Kemp, but I dont. She is just strict and she has high expectations of us, even though she is really on the little things we do. It's okay if I get detention. I am fine with it. I like Ms. Kemp. She is sometimes, when she is in a good mood, funny, nice and she is also fun. There is nothing wrong with her. Amanda lies a lot.

?

Should I sing my new song that I wrote for the auditions today in school?

OMG - AKWARD

I had to go on a trip today with...RAIMI! OMG! It was so awkward. At 3:00 today i have to go on another trip with him. No school today...And he completely ignored me today, as always. Whats his problem?

RUN

It gonna get you now
you havent run fast enough
its catching up
just run, just run
for your life

Its got your leg
but no
its got your heart
instead
you stop
and stare
and look in the mirror
what have you
become

You can hear your own heart
beating so fast
you can not breath
anymore
just get out now
before life takes over

Cause life is out to get you
every little lie
every little thing
is gonna matter now
is gonna matter now

Cause lies are gonna haunt you
every little second
every little day
is gonna hurt you now
is gonna hurt you now

Copyright - Tabitha Colon

Continued - SONG: RUN

Pack up all your stuff
and move away
just let the past
fade away
just leave it all
behind

Forget the past and leave
all of your things
you run away
from all of your
lies
and
betrayals

Cause life is out to get you
every little lie
every little thing
is gonna matter now
is gonna matter now

Cause lies are gonna haunt you
every litttle second
every little day
is gonna hurt you now
is gonna hurt you now
Copyright - Tabitha Colon

My song - beggining

It's coming out it starting to be alive
You can hear it's heart beating so fast
You can feel every little beat.

Run away and leave
All your things behind
Just come and play
Just run away
You can see it breaking free

Just run away as fast
As fast as you can
It gonna come
And eat you all up
It's coming now
I can feel it

Cause life is out to get you
Every little lie
Every little thing
is gonna matter now
Is gonna matter now

Cause lies are gonna haunt you
Every little second
Every little day
is gonna hurt you now
is gonna hurt you now

Copyright - Tabitha Colon

Ugh

Babies like Raimi call others babies, because to him he is grown up, and everyone else Is a baby, but it's actually the opposite. He should know that he might have mental problems.

WOW!

ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF MY BLOG!
I can't believe I have been blogging here for a year already! if you look in 2010, it says the first post was in march. Now its march 2011!

Okay

Immature people are so...ugh! Like someone who hates me for no reason now...he was mad because i was near him in recess. Thats so selfish! Just because he hates me means i cant hang out with my friends in certain places? Give me a break, Raimi.

Unnatural Selection- I WANT THE TRUTH

They'll laugh as they watch us fall

The lucky don't care at all

No chance for fate

It's unnatural selection

*I want the truth*

-Lyrics from Unnatural Selection by MuSe

I starred "I want the truth" because thats all I want nowadays. I dont care how hard it is to say.

"They'll laugh as they watch us fall" - People can be so careless and mean. Whats up with that? School is bad. Real bad. Not that my school is bad, but in general, school is not always a good place to be.

"The lucky dont care at all" SELF ABSORBED people dont care about anyone but themselves. Sometimes they see it in other people, not them selves, because they dont know the whole book of the person. They just think, "they are smart and sometimes they get mad. Ugh, they cant appreciate what they have", but you dont even know what they have. You just think about your smarts. *that is to self absorbed people*

"No chance for fate" - If you think that some people are done after one thing happened, like they do one thing then there whole life is ruined and you wont want to talk to them anymore, you have to give them a chance. Have faith in people.

"It's unnatural selection" - Sometimes you have categories of your life that no one else has, like music or friends, or clothing. Then comes the laughing and no mercy and self absorbed people doing that. Now comes the people who dont even say their feelings. They bottle things up. Then they let all the anger out at once and let it overflow like crazy. Then they start over after everything is cleared up, and the whole things starts with the quietness, so you want the truth all out before anything else happens.

-Kind of what is happening to me. The "It's unnatural selection" part is not about me, but other people. No one in general, but people. Everything is weird nowadays.

STUPID PEOPLE ARE RETARDED!

Some people can be so dumb, and i think retarded. Raimi deletes the emails when he asked me what do i have to say. Then he said its non of my buissness. THEN WHOS BUISNESS IS IT?! STUPID! OMG AND HE SAYS HE IS SMART PHT...

Happiness

Happiness,... how'd you get to be Happiness....how'd you get to find loooooove....looooove...
Join a group and you will find. Harmony and peace of mind, make it better.
WE'RE HERE TO WELCOME YOU
Time...stops still...when...you've lost LOOOOOOOOVE....LOOOOOOOVE....
Happiness,... how'd you get to be Happiness....how'd you get to find loooooove....looooove...
you would see a troubled soul, give them all your money will....make it better.
WE'RE HERE TO WELCOME YOU
Time...stops still...when...you've lost LOOOOOOOOVE....LOOOOOOOVE....
Happiness,... how'd you get to be Happiness....how'd you get to find loooooove....looooove...
a song by goldfrapp
im feeling happier now that I am friends with everyone and i have NO enemies
Thats all i want
to be happy

Lesson Learned

I learned my lesson after all this middle school drama happened. Life is hard, and sometimes i cant do anything about it. I wrote a song song called "Temporally Broken." Its a song that i sing and play the guitar in. I love life, but sometimes love could not be real. Like what happend to me.

Why?

I have been asking myself why for so many times. Why has this school become so bad. There was a hacker in my school. people think it was my math teacher Ms.Kemp. I never say anything because there isnt enough proof, and I know it has to be a lie. Why would she do that? "She" told my cousin, Amanda with my other friend Glismarie there "Yeah i hacked your computer. You got a problem with that?". It could have been a joke, but i know Glismarie doesn't lie.. I feel bad for Amanda, she got in trouble for no reason. There are always fights now. AND, why does life have to be so hard? Only god can answer.

Love should be ILLEGAL

I think love should be illegal. It can break hearts, mentally and physically, wont let people go to school because they cant sleep, and just cry their souls out. It can even kill someone mentally, it sometimes happens. I was heartbroken and my grade has been going down because i cant sleep and i cant go to school in the morning. I cry everyday when i think of what he did to me. He deleted me everywhere and he blocked me. He talks about me on facebook. I just am miserable at night and in school. He emailed me with a harassing email in school. He didnt curse so he didnt get in trouble. I just need someone other than family to help me through this, that actually understands. Phtt...never will happen.