Music

I love music. I like Shiny toy guns, Santogold, and many other. I have 364 songs on my itunes. Right now I'm listening to Don't Cry Out by Shiny Toy Guns. I love electronic, pop, r&b, and many more. I like metal, rock, alternate pop/rock, and indie, indie rock, and so much more.

"I NEEDED YOU TO NOTICE...THAT I WANT OUT!"
"DONT CRY OUT..........SHE'S FIRED............"
"TEN NINE EIGHT AND WERE BRAKING AWAY..IM ALL DRESSED UP AND READY TO PLAY......"

UGH!

UGH! Such a very bad day. Kinda funny, though. Caio first sat on my soda by accident then spilled his own. Crazy. Joey was hitting on me again, but he was just way too close to me. Raimi is...well...Raimi. Me and him are better than ever after our little fight. We are closer now. We went on our second date on Saturday to Johnny Rockets, then my house. He is really madly in love with me with what I se in his diary...I mean "journal". It's a diary. I'm just in a bad mood because I got detention. I'm sick for christ's sake! I have a FEVER! People just dont understand me. I am quiet and stuff, but i have another side too, just not a bad side. I am just always tired, shy, and sad...kinda. I am always frustrated with other people and I just feel...tired. I haven't got much sleep. I'm just so tired. I used to be filled with energy...now...I just am tired of typing. I WANT TO SLEEP! ZZZZZZzzzzzzz.........

My first fight

I always say, "My first fight would be with a sixth grader..." and it really was. Well, i was actually assaulted. The police came and took her to juvenile. But the good thing is that now i have a boy friend now....Raimi Burg. Yup, my first boy friend and my first fight. I talked to the police today and missed some math and my mom is in the school now. She will be there for a while.

New Grade, New Post

I just started 7th grade two weeks ago This new grade in Global Technology Preparatory is so different from last year. Now we all use mac computers. It's just great, but there are some new students, but the same old foes. I'm not going to give names, but I just want everyone to know i don't like having enemies at all. I tried to work things out with my worst enemy, but enemies don't stop clinging that easy. Things just won't change just because you say "please". You're just gonna have to take it like who you are. Thats my advice to you. 

Temptation

Temptation is my enemy. Temptation means to want something so bad, but you don't think you should get it. Thats whats ruining my life, making it an unfair life most of the time. God, why did you make temptation in the world? Temptation leads to sin, unhappiness, and greediness. I control my temptations most of the time, but its hard when im at a store, or in a beautiful home, anywhere that makes me feel that i get things poorly, like im some poor person in dept living in a ugly home. Thats not me, though. Im not in dept and i live in a wonderful home. Thats what i have to always think about when temptation comes to mind. Try it, it can really make a difference in your life if you compare yourself to other people in the street sleeping on the floor. You will change a little. :)

Change and Freedom

My mother finally decided to give me some more freedom. No, not walking by myself yet, but now she is letting me wear a little make-up to school. She just recently gave me a make-over. She dyed my hair with golden blonde highlights and she let me buy my own make-up. I can now wear eyeshadow and eyeliner and i can wear lipstick. I used to only be able to wear lipstick, but eyeshadow is my new make-up. The next step in freedom is walking by myself. I knew something was going to happen, change, as i said earlier in this blog. Time is actually going slow again. Wow, the things god can do and they way he shows us he is real. By the way, if you are not Christian, i am, and i believe in god. You don't have to, but i do. I think these things that im writing that is happening in real life is proof god is not fake, but a real spirit in the heavens.

Getting Worse

On saturday, i went to get a new and free computer from computers for youth in my school. Today, i went a trip to the intrepid with my class. at the end of the day i got hungry and acted crazy. "Look i have a burger! looky! heeeeeehaaaaahehahe!" Thats what i said, holding up a small peice of clay that looked like a burger. then a boy hit it out of my hand. i felt like crying. i laughed. "HAAAAAA HEE HA! HE MADE ME LOSE MY BURGER! WAAAAAHAHAHAHEHE! i was in tears. i was laughing and crying. it was funny. Apperently, no on else thought so. Then my friend gave me a bigger clump of clay and i was happy. then i went back to the boy and rubbed it his face. "HAHAHA I HAVE A HOTDOG! AND ITS BIG AND YOU DONT!! HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!" it was funny. even now i feel kinda looky. hee. jfiliewmrehlimgxclitumiceurhggagwefiuewrghcmcxmxgcluivhy...........................................................

Day 3

11 years old is not as old as i thought it was. I thought i was going into the teen years, and starting to get taller so ill be like 5'9. I'm 5 feet with my flats on. is guess it brings me about 2 inches taller, which is good. I pretty short for my age. This weekend i saw Alice in Wonderland, and that day was long, so it ended up being the last thing to do in the day, since we went to a couple of other things before that, while we were waiting. i also fixed my computer this weekend which is awesome because i can finally use the internet now. i haven't used the internet for a while, at least fun internet cause the computers in school have blocked websites. its so sad. Well, about the rush of time, even today its fast. i even asked my friend if time is going by fast, and she answered, "No".

Day 2

I woke up to the shining sun. I was way too tired to move. When I got up I got ready and headed out with my grandmother to school. When I got to the entrance, I hesitated and began to walk in. When I got upstairs I was in the Common Room and I sat down to use the computer. I typed in "armorbot.com" and I played my favorite game called "Raze". "I won!" I yelled out, then feeling a little embaressed. I kept playing for 15 minuets then headed to class. I can't wait to get home. I'm doing better in class. I've been thinking about my childhood. "Thank you so much!" I yelled when i was 4. It was Christmas morning and I had gotten one of those cheap dolls from Joeys. When i was little, i liked them. A lot of things changed over the past 11 years, and sometimes i think time is going too fast, i think God is making time go faster because he can't wait for something, something big thats going to happen, but why am i the only one feeling the rush?

Day 1

My life is hard and easy. My life is fun and boring. My life is happy. My life is life. I came out of my mothers womb and was infected with ADHD. Thats what happens when you have a child young, because you have a child while you're a child. If I was born later, I wouldn't have this wonderful life I have with my young mom. I just hope she doesn't regret the decision of keeping me. She would have had an abortion, but once I developed in the womb, she already loved me so much. I am so grateful for my life. No one else has their mom to take care of their baby. My grandmother helps my mom. ADHD is attention deficit hyper disorder. I am lucky that its not bad. I can control it, so I always am a little hyper, but it can stop, and I might not always pay attention, but I force my self to stay still. Its hard. I never thought I would get older when I was younger, because it would be so long, but time goes faster than you think, and you don't even realize it. I think that I'm a one of a kind, since I understand so many things about adult situations, and especially since I have ADHD. One day, I am going to change so much, but everyday I wonder, when is that day?