Okay

Immature people are so...ugh! Like someone who hates me for no reason now...he was mad because i was near him in recess. Thats so selfish! Just because he hates me means i cant hang out with my friends in certain places? Give me a break, Raimi.

Unnatural Selection- I WANT THE TRUTH

They'll laugh as they watch us fall

The lucky don't care at all

No chance for fate

It's unnatural selection

*I want the truth*

-Lyrics from Unnatural Selection by MuSe

I starred "I want the truth" because thats all I want nowadays. I dont care how hard it is to say.

"They'll laugh as they watch us fall" - People can be so careless and mean. Whats up with that? School is bad. Real bad. Not that my school is bad, but in general, school is not always a good place to be.

"The lucky dont care at all" SELF ABSORBED people dont care about anyone but themselves. Sometimes they see it in other people, not them selves, because they dont know the whole book of the person. They just think, "they are smart and sometimes they get mad. Ugh, they cant appreciate what they have", but you dont even know what they have. You just think about your smarts. *that is to self absorbed people*

"No chance for fate" - If you think that some people are done after one thing happened, like they do one thing then there whole life is ruined and you wont want to talk to them anymore, you have to give them a chance. Have faith in people.

"It's unnatural selection" - Sometimes you have categories of your life that no one else has, like music or friends, or clothing. Then comes the laughing and no mercy and self absorbed people doing that. Now comes the people who dont even say their feelings. They bottle things up. Then they let all the anger out at once and let it overflow like crazy. Then they start over after everything is cleared up, and the whole things starts with the quietness, so you want the truth all out before anything else happens.

-Kind of what is happening to me. The "It's unnatural selection" part is not about me, but other people. No one in general, but people. Everything is weird nowadays.

STUPID PEOPLE ARE RETARDED!

Some people can be so dumb, and i think retarded. Raimi deletes the emails when he asked me what do i have to say. Then he said its non of my buissness. THEN WHOS BUISNESS IS IT?! STUPID! OMG AND HE SAYS HE IS SMART PHT...

Happiness

Happiness,... how'd you get to be Happiness....how'd you get to find loooooove....looooove...
Join a group and you will find. Harmony and peace of mind, make it better.
WE'RE HERE TO WELCOME YOU
Time...stops still...when...you've lost LOOOOOOOOVE....LOOOOOOOVE....
Happiness,... how'd you get to be Happiness....how'd you get to find loooooove....looooove...
you would see a troubled soul, give them all your money will....make it better.
WE'RE HERE TO WELCOME YOU
Time...stops still...when...you've lost LOOOOOOOOVE....LOOOOOOOVE....
Happiness,... how'd you get to be Happiness....how'd you get to find loooooove....looooove...
a song by goldfrapp
im feeling happier now that I am friends with everyone and i have NO enemies
Thats all i want
to be happy

Lesson Learned

I learned my lesson after all this middle school drama happened. Life is hard, and sometimes i cant do anything about it. I wrote a song song called "Temporally Broken." Its a song that i sing and play the guitar in. I love life, but sometimes love could not be real. Like what happend to me.

Why?

I have been asking myself why for so many times. Why has this school become so bad. There was a hacker in my school. people think it was my math teacher Ms.Kemp. I never say anything because there isnt enough proof, and I know it has to be a lie. Why would she do that? "She" told my cousin, Amanda with my other friend Glismarie there "Yeah i hacked your computer. You got a problem with that?". It could have been a joke, but i know Glismarie doesn't lie.. I feel bad for Amanda, she got in trouble for no reason. There are always fights now. AND, why does life have to be so hard? Only god can answer.

Love should be ILLEGAL

I think love should be illegal. It can break hearts, mentally and physically, wont let people go to school because they cant sleep, and just cry their souls out. It can even kill someone mentally, it sometimes happens. I was heartbroken and my grade has been going down because i cant sleep and i cant go to school in the morning. I cry everyday when i think of what he did to me. He deleted me everywhere and he blocked me. He talks about me on facebook. I just am miserable at night and in school. He emailed me with a harassing email in school. He didnt curse so he didnt get in trouble. I just need someone other than family to help me through this, that actually understands. Phtt...never will happen.